Becoming who you are.
- Niek De Graef
- 6 days ago
- 3 min read
It is nice to truly meet you, I thought, while I looked at Lynn. We grew up in the same neighborhood, went to the same elementary school, and always stayed connected because of our mutual friends. So why was I thinking these thoughts?
Is this the beginning of a love story?Absolutely not.
When you’ve been medicated for over 13 years with a drug that clouds your mind, you can never truly get to know anyone—because you can’t even get to know yourself.
These last few weeks, I’ve spent a lot of time with my family and friends due to the passing of a friend and brother, Jasper. Going through the pictures and stories, I started to wonder: Who is this strange man? It was me.
While most of my friends in Belgium reached their highest peak in life in their twenties—graduating from school, getting married, buying a house, having children—I went to rehab.
There was already this quiet acceptance that I would never be the same.
I hit my lowest point when I was 24.While I was at my lowest low, they were at their highest high.
I dedicated the next seven years to developing myself and completely changing my blueprint. Because I was tired of living like that. I was tired of waking up every day and fantasizing about how I would take my own life.
But, as one of my friends Thomas always told me, “You need to be so tired of your own suffering that you’re finally done with it.”Or, like Tony Robbins likes to say:“When the pain of staying the same becomes greater than the pain of change, that’s when people are ready to change.”
I call this kind of shift consciously choosing to transform your life. Because here’s the thing—change happens automatically.
If we stop developing ourselves, we don’t stay the same—we slowly begin to die. Our bodies get lazy and age faster. Our minds get lazy and start to forget. But when we consciously develop ourselves, we grow toward life.
The interesting thing is that many of my friends in Belgium who reached their peak in their twenties are now already declining in their thirties. It's become common to hear conversations about depression, anxiety, health problems, scarcity, and burnout.
Some of my friends who partied through their twenties and never even tried to change their lifestyle are now suffering from physical and mental health issues that people in their sixties struggle with.
When you’re young, the body can recover more quickly from alcohol, drugs, and sleepless nights. But as we age, we don’t get away with it so easily. I never thought it would already be happening in my thirties—but it is.
I kind of did all of that between the ages of 14 and 17. When I had my first psychosis at 17, I already slowed down a lot. But when I had my second psychosis at 24, I knew I needed to change something.
And I knew that regular psychiatrists weren’t the answer I was looking for. I needed to do something that no one around me had ever done. And I needed to do it alone—without the support of an environment that wanted me to keep taking medication and simply follow what the doctors said.
I started to heal myself holistically. That means healing from the physical, sexual, mental, emotional, and spiritual aspects of life. I had to completely reinvent myself to become the person I am today.
Getting to where I am now didn’t happen overnight.
This is what Cure To Freedom is all about. It's about rewriting your story, no matter how far off track you’ve gone. It’s about breaking free from the systems, the beliefs, and the habits that kept you stuck. It’s about healing—mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually—and consciously creating the life you were always meant to live.
I don’t just offer solutions.
I offer transformation.
Because I’ve lived it.
And now, I am here to guide others through it.
Love and Light,
Your guide, Niek
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